Everyone takes things for granted and I know I am guilty of this too. I truly try to be grateful for everything that I have. I know that I am SO fortunate to have a wonderful husband and beautiful son as well as a sweet family. I am very blessed and I know that while there may be things that I want, I don’t need anything. I have my family, food and shelter, which is much more than so many in the world.
Knowing that I have so much and want for so little makes me feel guilty sometimes.
Tomorrow is Mother’s Day. It’s my first official Mother’s Day as a new mom, but it’s bittersweet. I am thrilled to be able to celebrate with my husband and baby boy, but I never thought I wouldn’t be able to celebrate my first Mother’s Day without my mom.
My mom passed away in January 2008, a year and a half before David was born. She didn’t get to celebrate with us when we found out that I was pregnant. She didn’t get to see the ultrasounds or hear his heartbeat. She didn’t get to visit us in the hospital right after he was born. She never got the chance to hold him, see him smile, roll over or crawl. She didn’t get to hear him laugh or cry. And he will never get to meet her here on earth. I can’t call her up and ask for advice or just to talk. We can’t go on road trips together and laugh so hard we pee or even get into arguments over silly little things that really don’t matter. I can’t tell her “I love you and I’ll see you soon.”
Sorry for rambling, but I just want to remind everyone to be thankful for your mom. Remind her tomorrow that you love her and how special she is to you. Thank her for everything she has done for you and loving you always.